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Inner Pondering
Welcome to Inner Pondering, a sacred space for the soul on its journey home.
This podcast is for anyone walking through the fire of transformation—those who feel the pull to awaken, to heal deeply, and to remember who they truly are.
Each episode is a gentle yet honest conversation on navigating the dark nights, releasing what no longer serves, ready to stop running, and returning to your inner truth. With grounded insights, personal reflections, and soulful reminders, Nikki invites you to slow down, breathe, and reconnect with the wisdom already inside you.
This isn’t about becoming someone new—it’s about unbecoming everything you’re not, and healing emotionally and spiritually. Not by fixing the wounded parts of you, but by remembering what is already whole within.
Because when you finally listen to the quiet voice within… that’s when the real awakening begins.
Episodes
101 episodes
Your Body Knows the Truth — Even When You Don’t
Have you ever felt something in your body you couldn’t explain? That heaviness out of nowhere. The sudden fatigue. The same tightness that shows up every time you’re around certain people.It’s easy to think it’s just stress, or ...
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You’re Manifesting from the Wrong Place — Here’s Why It Feels Empty
You’re manifesting. You’re visualizing. You’re doing everything they say... So why does it still feel empty inside?This is the part most people never talk about—manifestation without soul alignment feels hollow. When yo...
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11:35
The Most Dangerous Thing About the Spiritual Path
Many of us are sold the idea that spiritual healing comes from something outside of ourselves—rituals, symbols, or someone else’s method. But the most dangerous illusion on the spiritual path is believing you are not already whole.In thi...
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20:41
You Don’t Need to Protect Your Energy — Here’s Why
We’ve all heard the advice: protect your energy. Guard yourself. Block others. Stay shielded. But what if true energy protection isn’t about guarding at all?In this episode, I share a deep reflection on what it really means ...
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15:19
Signs You’re Outgrowing People on Your Spiritual Path | How to Let Go with Grace
You can feel it — something’s shifted. You’re changing, but the people around you no longer feel aligned. This episode dives deep into the subtle yet powerful signs that you’re outgrowing people on your spiritual path.We’ll explor...
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15:44
I Walked Away From My Old Life | The Pain and Power of Spiritual Awakening
Isn’t it strange how the things we never wanted become the very things we live by?I walked away—quietly and truthfully—from the life I built to fit everyone else.This is the exhaustion of spiritual awakening—when the weight...
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17:48
The Hidden Truth About People Pleasing | Why It Keeps You From Being Honest With Yourself
People pleasing might look like kindness on the surface — but beneath it is fear, self-abandonment, and emotional exhaustion. In this reflection, I share my spiritual awakening journey and what happens when you finally stop people pleasing....
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14:47
Awakening Through Chaos: War Is Just a Mirror, Peace Starts Within
In a world overwhelmed by war, division, and constant noise, many souls are being called inward. This episode is for those navigating a spiritual awakening during uncertain times, feeling anxious, disconnected, or emotionally drained. Yo...
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7:51
What Really Happens When You Start Healing Spiritually and Emotionally
In this episode of Inner Pondering, we explore the hidden side of healing—the part no one prepares you for. This is where the life you built to survive begins to unravel… and you slowly return to your true self.This i...
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Avoidance Feels Safe, But It’s a Cage | Emotional Numbing
“Avoidance isn’t laziness—it’s unspoken grief. And the longer we run, the further we drift from our true self.”In this episode of Inner Pondering, we explore the quiet ways emotional avoidance shapes our lives—how we scro...
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The REAL REASON you keep giving your heart to the wrong people
Experiencing **rejection** can be incredibly painful, especially when it feels like your efforts are unappreciated. This difficult experience can actually spark a powerful **spiritual awakening**, leading to deeper **self love** and **soul grow...
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Signs You're Awakening Spiritually
Have you felt disconnected, more emotional, or suddenly aware of patterns that no longer serve you? You might be in the middle of a spiritual awakening — and no, you're not going crazy.In this episode, we break down the real s...
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10:07
The Hidden Truth Behind Our Obsession with Purpose
Are we really meant to “find” purpose — or have we simply forgotten how to live it?In this episode of Inner Pondering, we explore the deeper truth behind purpose, identity, and presence. You’ve been told to chase purp...
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12:14
What I No Longer Believe — And Why It Set Me Free
We all outgrow beliefs that once felt like truth. In this episode, I open up about the thoughts, habits, and emotional patterns I’ve let go of — not because they were wrong, but because they no longer serve who I’m becoming.Th...
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8:30
Your worrying won't change the future
Your worrying won't change the futureWhy focusing on today is actually better than worrying about tomorrow. And how to be happy with what you have and where you are in the moment. Stop waiting, stop expecting, and start living.#personal...
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7:52
When Darkness Becomes the Doorway
In this raw and healing 9-minute episode, Nikki guides you through the emotional and spiritual unraveling we often call the dark night of the soul. If you’ve been feeling lost, stuck, numb, or disconnected from your path, this message ...
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9:27
Give me 8 minutes, and I’ll help you discover if you're truly in the right space
Give me 8 minutes, and I’ll help you discover if you're truly in the right spaceEver feel lost or unnoticed in a world that seems to push against you? Are you questioning if you are in the right space, the right place? Imagine finding a pla...
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8:26
Find the Love That’s Always Been Right in Front of You
Discover the powerful, unconditional love that resides within you. True love starts from within, and once you recognize it, it can never be denied. This journey of self-love unlocks the deep connection that will change the way you love yourself...
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9:42
Why True Wealth Isn't What You Think
Why True Wealth Isn't What You ThinkChallenges common beliefs about being rich and why being rich isn't what you think. Exploring how to embrace abundance and achieve real happiness. Explore how true richness isn't about material possession...
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9:40
Who you are matters more than where you are
Who you are matters more than where you areWhat if where you are means nothing? We often define ourselves by our achievements, possessions, and status, but these external factors don't truly define our worth. Is recognizing who we are...
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7:20
Why Self-Love Matters More Than Approval
Why Loving Yourself Matters More Than Being LikedDo you ever feel held back by the fear of what others might think? This feeling can be overwhelming, keeping you from fully embracing who you are. But what if the real issue isn’t what ...
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9:01
What Happens When You Stop Chasing Outcomes?
What Happens When You Stop Chasing Outcomes?What if the very things you think will bring you happiness are the reason you’re stuck? We all chase desires, intentions, and outcomes, believing they’ll fulfill us—only to be met with disappointm...
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8:43
Be What You Need | The SECRET to Finding Peace
Be What You Need | The SECRET to Finding PeaceEver felt like you're constantly searching for something, but can’t seem to find it? What if the answer was always inside you, waiting to be discovered? What if the key to finding peace and c...
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